9 posts tagged “rambling”
There's too much stuff I want to talk about. Music...Mark Ronson @ Electric Proms...EVR...Adele and Daniel Merriweather. My ambition to start a band. Work, school and the motherf*cking house. The catering business. Cupertino. UK2K8. Stupid IM's. deletia. Internet dating profiles (seriously WTMFF!!!!). New people at work. Handsome fellas on both Vox and and at work. Sondre Lerche. Crazy So Cal weather. Suprise $3,000 check in the mail.
There is seriously too much going on. And what day is it? I have no clue.
I need to do a brain dump because nothing is making sense and I can't get it together enough to write it out. I went to go running and there was a GIANT SPIDER in my shoe, so I didn't go and now I need new running shoes because I'll be damned if I'm putting those on.
The heat wave - at least in the South Bay area of San Diego has finally broken. Thank sweet baby Jesus for that. If only it were like this last week, I'd not have a sunburned face.
In any case, the sitting-around-in-the-underpants of yesterday was BRILLIANT. Today I must actually do some work most of which includes advertising for daycare. Which we've done by passing out flyers and cards so far, but no takers. I'm thinking of placing an advert on San Diego's Craigslist or something. We've canvassed the schools and local apartments and what not with flyers. Dunno what else to do really. Any idears?
It was a year ago today that I got on a plane for England. I miss it so much! Today I get an e-mail from Virgin Atlantic saying that they've dropped the rates for my birthday. I checked and I can get to England for $632 including all taxes, fees and surcharges. Now if Michelle would just pay me back what she owes me, I could go! LOL that's never going to happen. But the idea is tempting...I may work overtime or whatever just so I can do something fun on my birthday. My birthday is usually forgotten around here, by both friends and family alike so a trip would be nice. Hmm. Possibilities.
ooh this turned into one of those rambley entries again =/ Perhaps I should go back to bed?
I fell asleep in choir rehearsal tonight. Yes, I fell asleep right in the middle of C.O.G.I.C. dancing, shouting, Holy-Ghost filled choir rehearsal. I am exhausted. It was the first time I had sat down all day, running around after the kids, driving everyone everywhere, cooking dinner, baking 50 white chocolate mini cheesecakes...I sat down and passed out. I woke up to the choir director yelling "that baby is tired ya'll. what ya'll doing to her?"
Of course it helps that I can fall asleep anywhere. Who else do you know (besides a child) that has fallen asleep in the middle of Disneyland?
Next Friday is the girl's last day here with me. I'm kind of sad and glad that they're going. Sad because they were a lot of fun, and really good kids if you guide them correctly. Glad because I won't have to deal with their crazy ass parents - all three of them! Then I get prepped for our big event we have going down on the Military base. I just hope we don't run out of food!
I guess it's good that my next class is directed study, meaning that I don't have to be on ground to deal with teams and teachers. It's just one on one online with myself and a teacher. I think I'm going to love it.
Speaking of love, I'm going to fall asleep listening to some Air. Yep, that sounds good.
Sometimes you pour your heart out. And it isn't enough.
I told him everything, and after I was done I still felt like I was lame. I was trying to make him see why I'm so gun-shy when it comes to friendships and all I think I got was a pity party. That wasn't what I wanted. Or needed.
And now I feel like the scared immature girl again, but I realized that it's what I've been feeling for the past few months.
There were also some more revelations, proving that it was all in my head anyway. And I'm a hardcore over-analyzer.
Wait, I guess I shouldn't say that -- it's just that what he wants it doesn't make sense. I've never been able to seperate the deeper feelings from just sex, especially when those feelings are a really good friendship that developed so fast. I think I'm just a little confused, and I don't like having it explained like I'm some small child. Gah! Why did I get so angry all of a sudden? IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE.
None of it does. I'm definitely ready to go crawl into a cave now.
(break time)
Back in high school, I was pretty good at chemistry. I took Honors Chemistry and Biology and I really, really liked science.
Apparently, that shit doesn't stick because I'm reading this book and it's like reading Greek. What the hell is this catalyst chemical reaction crap? Can fungi undergo photosynthesis? Law of Inertia? Lenz's Law?
Law of WTF for sure. I have no idea what any of this means (and I keep dozing off.)
I guess at this point, the only thing to do is take a (longer) break and watch me some 24. mmm Jack Bauer. mmm torture.
I haven't been feeling really well for the past week; to be honest it's more or less since Christmas. I've just been pretty down, emotionally and physically. Or is it the emotional stress that is now turned physical? I have no idea. I just know that it doesn't feel good, and that I don't really know what "it" is.
So tomorrow morning, I'm going to get back working out; maybe that will help. Working out sometimes helps with mood probs, so I hear. We'll see.
(or my pre-surgery psychiatrist could be right and I suffer from chronic depression. but I really, really want to prover her wrong.)
I think I've found him.
I know I've always said that marrying is the last thing I'd ever want to do, along with giving birth. But I think I've just found the man that if, for some reason I fall and have some serious brain trauma, I'd like to do it (ha!) with.
That man, is Stephen Merchant.
Wait wait, hear me out!!! Let's go down the list of my requirements, and you'll see he fits.
1) Meets the height requirement of 6'0". Actually, kind of kicks it in the arse at 6'7". Bloody overachiever. (you're probably wondering why someone 5' has a height requirement of 6'. It's to give my future children a fighting chance)
2) Is quick witted (or at least, smarter than Karl Pilkington. Sorry Karl.)
3) Like me, feels that he is the only single person around (not if we get it on!)
4) Is very funny
5) Believes that the only way to relieve yourself in the ocean, is to pull your trunks down
6) Dresses nice. I wonder if he smells good? hmm.
7) Like me, has abysmal eyesight but wears cool specs.
8) Fits the age requirement of being older than me, but still not too old to get it up.
See! It's meant to be! I think we can make it work. Call me Steve!
I guess it's been taking me so long to tell everyone about my trip because life happened. Or is happening. It's coming up on my favorite and busiest time of the year and I feel like I'm being pulled in 15 million directions. Also because I don't think anyone cares too much about my trip; when I came home-- well I couldn't really get anyone to listen to me. They had that vacant stare- you know what I mean, because you do it to your friends too. Anyhow, I guess the entries are more for my own amusement and I'll get them up there when I get damn time.
In any case, I went out and bought my CLEP book so I can prepare to study and test out of some courses. I didn't do my homework for this next course (but I will! Researching now!) starting Tuesday. I'm so excited! It's more exciting now because I have a definate goal in mind so I am extremely motivated. If you don't see me for a long time, just look under the pile of papers.
Is it bad that the highlight of my week has been my retractable Sharpies? I love Sharpies.
I also have some very interesting news regarding business stuff...but I want to wait for it to be definate before I really say anything.
over and out.
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